To Get Pregnant, Or Not to Get Pregnant... That is the Question

SIGH. Some days I want to have kids. Some days I'm not so sure. I turn 35 this month: the age at which you become "at risk" for problems with giving birth according to the GYN's. We haven't even been married for a year but everyone's bugging us about having babies. I guess I have a combination of issues that make me unsure about having kids.

I wonder if I'm too selfish because I so enjoy having "me" time or "us" time with just my husband and myself. He travels so much that I cherish our weekends and look forward to going to movies or out to dinner or just doing whatever fun things we want to do. I know that those things all change once a baby comes.

I know that with Hubby traveling, I'd be taking care of the child myself a lot. Can i handle that? I don't know.

I also worry that I don't have the patience for a child. I love my 8 nieces and nephews but sometimes the noise and "work" of it all makes it hard to enjoy them. Perhaps I'm so used to just being alone with peace and quiet that my nerves are too easily rattled.

Am I over-thinking this? I do want kids. I just want to be prepared - mentally, physically and financially. But I wonder if that will ever be the case. Insights anyone???